When you know yourself and you know how to know yourself, it’s not something that you can easily ignore. No matter what, there will always be others that believe that the “You” that you yearn so deeply to be will never be enough…will put themselves in danger…will destroy themselves. Part of knowing yourself is knowing when others are wrong about who you are and knowing when they are right. You have to be willing to admit the differences between times when others are pointing out true downfalls to your character and when they are simply afraid that they cannot control your decisions.
Parents are often the ones who fear the loss of control once you grow older. However, plenty of siblings and other close friends can be just as concerned when you begin to realize who you are and ignore their thoughts of who you should be. Everyone in this world can be better, no matter how good they are, but the only way to realize that you need to change is to look in the mirror and find who you are right now.
All beings have both, good and bad attributes to their character. Part of becoming a better person is realizing what your character consists of on both, positive and negative sides. Life is a continuous journey, part of which I believe is the search for self that we all hunt for until the day that we die.
I have experienced loss in my life. Everyone has, but with each loss and gain I have learned something new about who I am. I remember when my grandfather was dying. I realized that I did not know him as well as I wish that I did and I took advantage of his life when he was healthy. I still do so to others, but now I am aware of it and I continue to push myself to acknowledge my actions as I commit them, before it is too late.
Life is like a very drawn out rehab or AA meeting. The first step to changing who you are is to recognize that part of you needs to change. We all have problems and many of those problems are ones that we cause for ourselves. Without the realization that we are consistently drawing out or causing these problems, there will never be any change.
I have many problems that I have caused for myself and as I continue to realize that I, even if I didn’t initially cause them, I may have made these problems last far longer than needed. In the many realizations that have already occurred, I have also come to see that there will be far more to arrive. At times, they are initially rejected and turned to others. Yes, I mean that I reject them. However, in time I usually come to see that I have been silly or ignorant.
I wish for change. I believe that most of us do, but change continues be a distant wish from a magical genie that we hope to see unless we recognize the faults in our character. As I continue to find myself and live through normal issues that the world presents, I share this with those who listen or search for advice.