I remember the shadows first visit, like it was yesterday. I opened up my eyes and found that I was being strangled. I tried to fight back but I couldn’t move, I was almost completely paralyzed. The only thing I had control of was my eyes. I couldn’t believe what my eyes were seeing. It was a shadow in the shape of a person with blood red eyes that glowed. It was snarling at me but I couldn’t see its mouth.
That shadow person knew I had awoken and began to squeeze even tighter. I felt the air leave my body, I couldn’t breathe. I thought I was going to die, I almost did. But right before I closed my eyes, the shadow let go and left. It took me a while to catch my breath and when I finally did I began to scream. My neck was burning. My husband woke up and tried to convince me that it was all a nightmare. At first I agreed, it was very possible that it was all a nightmare. After all it was easier for me to believe I had a nightmare, rather than an evil visit.
It didn’t matter because that morning I discovered it was real. When I went to go brush my teeth I was terrified at what I saw. I had multiple bruises on my neck. If it was a nightmare then why did I have bruises around my neck? I was so conflicted and scared. I called my husband to show him my neck. He insisted I had bruised myself while having the nightmare. Though it was plausible I still had a feeling in the pit of my stomach, I knew something bad was coming.
That night I tried to avoid falling asleep but it was impossible. Once again I woke up and realized I was being strangled. This time the shadow was right on top of me. Same blood red glowing eyes, only this time I saw its mouth open. It was pure darkness and terrified me so much. I couldn’t scream, move or breathe. All I had left was the voice of my mind. I called on Jesus Christ name and it let me go. It slammed my bedroom door as it left. I was able to move immediately. I ran behind it to check on my children but it had disappeared. My husband didn’t believe me, but I knew it was all real. I knew I was awake, even if he didn’t believe. I couldn’t afford not to believe, the shadow wanted to kill me, still does.
I went to bed the next night with my bible and holy water under my pillow. There was something different about that night. When I woke up I wasn’t being attacked. It was a different shadow person, the eyes had light. The feeling was love. The shadow was kissing me. I felt as if I was floating. I could feel the shadow hug me in mid air. The kiss was so beautiful, I’ve never experienced such a beautiful kiss before. It was one long kiss, it felt like love. The shadow placed me gently on the bed and went through my wall. I was able to move when the shadow left.The first thing I did was touch my lips. Then once reason set in, I began to feel disgusted with myself. How could I have enjoyed the kiss so much? Why wasn’t I scared? What is going on?
So many questions without answer. All I know is that I still see the shadow people some nights. Sometimes I get good feelings, other times it is just terrifying. I have begun to see them during the day. I could see them flying right past my face. I believe that it is because the light scatters the darkness and the shadows are flying away from the light. It is truly an amazing sight, until night falls.