Some of the first words Anthony (the high level guide I channel) ever discussed through me were: “I’ve been waiting for you for a long time. You’re the one I picked. I’m overcome with rapturous happiness and love for you and am supremely joyous that we’re eventually able to join.”
Actually, although I was really jazzed at having the ability channel and to link a guide, I was uneasy with these words. I was taking some ‘worthiness’ issues at the time. Friends and my family would laugh at this because I was self assured and very confident.
As I write this I can remember an incident from a few years before I started this experience that is channeling. NAET is a healing modality. The professional when allergens are identified performs NAET to treat the allergy and uses muscle testing to examine vials of potential allergens. I’d endured from debilitating sensitivities and allergies to substances and many foods for a while and I was desperate for some relief from the prohibitive diet and lifestyle. Early in my treatment plan the professional, a lovely young woman named Shilo, inquired in a probationary quiet voice “would you be open to treating some emotions?” I was open to anything.
And so started our NAET journey, I would be treated by each visit Shilo for a couple of foods or substances and an emotion. After the treatment, we’d discuss and we became good friends. “I can not believe it! Do you believe that’s appropriate?” I understood as my children would tell me was such a know it all that it looked out of character and it was but I’d become so adept at putting on the show.
I felt like I wasn’t unworthy of being the one Anthony picked. At the time, I thought of channeling as someone being picked by a being or beings of higher intellect to bring mankind really significant messages. This isn’t what Anthony meant at all.
What Anthony was actually saying became clear as I heard and came to comprehend his next message “I’m you and you’re me and collectively we’re we.” Anthony is the part of me that’s in the area of development. I, the person me, will not hold or include ME all.
Anthony isn’t different from me ‘he’ does have access to memories and advice that can help me live a more joyful life by leading me. When ‘the human’ said “you’re the one I picked” I now understand that Anthony meant the earthly me, the physical body my world parents created and I, the huge ME picked to use. (But that’s a story for another day)
What’s the ideal way to develop self-worth? It’s just remembering who we actually are. There’s no thing and no one ‘high’ to judge us.