As a child, I had always wanted to be a teacher. I loved writing and reading and thought being a high school English teacher was the future for me. However; once I started attending college in the late 1980s and early 1990s, there were very few educational opportunities for evening part-time students. There were no evening classes for English or Education. The most popular courses were Business and Psychology.
I put my teaching aspirations to the side and settled on Forensic Psychology. I was fascinated with the minds of Serial Killers and found it interesting how these Psychologists were able to profile these people. This was before the days of “CSI” and all the shows that make it look glamorous. I never got to experience any of the classes needed for this degree as I had to wade my way through the core classes needed for every degree.
I left school in 1993 because of family obligations. I did not return for 17 years. For the 17 years I longed to return, the desire to become a high school English teacher subsided. What replaced it was a desire to become a writer, motivational speaker and life coach. I could not attend school because I was a single parent raising two children; however, this did not stop me from learning. If I couldn’t go to school, I would have the school come to me. I became an autodidact. The more I learned on my own, the more I knew what my true passion was. My goal when I was younger was to find a career I wouldn’t hate that would pay well, but it wasn’t my passion.
When my son started his college career, I told him to get a degree in something you love regardless of the pay. If you love what you do then you will be good at it and the money will come…or not. However, what will come is happiness and satisfaction.
I was speaking with a 30 year old young woman in my class. She told me she wants to be an early education teacher but she cannot afford to continue with her education to obtain a Masters. She was torn as to whether she should try to continue her education or find a job that will pay her more money now. I could see the distress in her face and the sadness that she would not be able to fulfill her dream.
I said to her, “I understand the necessity for money, we have to survive, but don’t give up on your dream. If you really want to be an early education teacher a way will find you.”
It took my 17 years for a way to find me. My spirit is no longer in conflict with necessity and now I know what my life purpose is.
People may think it is irresponsible or unwise to change from a job that pays well to a career that would require a drastic pay cut no matter how much it inspires me. To those people I say, “I would rather die on a cold floor in the corner of a room knowing that I’ve helped others reach their dreams; than die in luxury and never have helped a soul.”
But I know, the fact that I will do what I love will bring synchronistic opportunities my way, and I will want for nothing.