When I was growing up, I’ve had numerous girlfriends in the past, but the only reason why I’ve had so many is because I’ve lacked the simple Idea of just trust it also happened the other way around where my girlfriend at the time wouldn’t trust me. From experience I’ve only had drama because of my insecurities or my significant other thinking that every girl that walked through the door I wanted to smash harder than stubborn potatoes.
I was never this way. I used to be so outgoing, trusting and happy. It was up until my first major relationship when I was fifteen or sixteen years of age. Everything was going good up until I started having trust issues later on down. I couldn’t tell you if it was me or her that started having these insecurities, I just know the fights were horrid especially for such a young age.
I would sit there and let my jealousy build within until it popped like that gigantic zit you attacked right before prom and left a steamy red blemish that everyone noticed, the same goes for her. She eventually cheated on me thinking I cheated on her and I took her back and that just lead to more betrayal and punishment I put myself through when I really didn’t have to go through it, what can I say? I felt like I was in love. But all good and bad things must come to an end but for me it was different, that insecure part of me stayed with me for the next few major relationships ending in the same way.
My last relationship that ended in a fit of jealous bickering on both parts was when I was 23. I’m now about to turn 25 years old in these next few weeks and I’ve never been happier with who I’m with. At first I’m not gonna lie I had these slow roasting thoughts that it was going to be just like before, the fighting, the constant fighting that came up more than infants spitting formula. That part of me changed though, the part of me that felt so betrayed and void of trust just vanished. Don’t get me wrong I still get those feelings but they turned minor. I completely trust this woman and I can honestly say I’ve never been happier with my final decision to trust her completely. Everything from just talking to joking all the way to sex has escalated to pure bliss. She never wants to leave my side and I never want to leave her’s. Because we both decided to trust each other completely we never hide anything from each other. This may sound cheesier than your local pizzeria throwing triple the amount of cheese on your 4 cheese pizza but this woman literally brings butterflies to my stomach every time I see her and whenever we touch you can literally feel the love there. After all these years I can finally say I am completely happy with this relationship. I’m no expert at love (but who really is?) but if everyone in a relationship even tried to trust and just love the fact that your with that person and be yourself, you both will have a happy and healthy relationship, so if you’re carrying baggage from the past make sure you forget to take it on the cruise ship that is a meaningful relationship.