I wept of the hole she laid in. She looked at peace there. Her hands clasped together in prayer, Heaven knows she needs to rest. I can’t say that she’d be missed, or even that I knew her. She was a little strange and angry, but all the same she was my friend throughout all the years we grew up together. I thought she was stronger than any, I’d ever seen. I called her my better half and gave her every part of me. She shielded my from family and protected me from friends. Now that she’s gone, I am able to rebuild my life again. I was broken for a time and didn’t even realize that I was withering away. I used her as my outer shell, because I wasn’t strong enough to say what I felt or anything I was thinking. Now that she’s gone I have my freedom and I’m dreaming. I dream of my future and I set all my goals. My life has changed for the better now, this I know. I prayed a long time and I sat back and watched her grow. But I am able to lay my old self down and let the seeds of my spirit grow. I am not who I once was. I am born anew. I laid down the depressed girl who shut herself out from all she knew and the things she didn’t she kept away. No long will I live that way. I am grown now and I see my mistakes. All I see now is the world in my hands and my mind and heart I’ve changed from cold and closed to warm and open. I cry these tears of joy now that I am free spoken.