I remember as a child having dreams of one day becoming a Doctor, Lawyer, or some other person of great importance. I remember adults telling me that if I follow my dreams that I could be whatever I want, but unfortunately as we get older “reality hits,” and dreams become just that… “dreams.”
You see, I am Learning Disabled. I lived my life “up until” adult hood thinking that I could be a Lawyer, Doctor, or anything else that I could possibly dream of, not caving into the notion that my Disability has hampered me in so many ways.
I remember the day I graduated High School, and I had a meeting with DARS (Department of Assistive and Rehabilitative Services) that next day. I was so excited and giddy with anticipation, thinking that was the day that my dreams were going to come true, and my life was finally going to get started. Anyway, I woke up that morning. I went to my “DARS” meeting, and they sent me off to take a “Aptitude Test” to see where my skill set lye. After a week waiting in anticipation to see the results. We finally sat down with a DARS Counselor for the results of my test.
That’s when one of the most Heartbreaking moments in my life happened. My Counselor told me that my aptitude test revealed that I probably could never be anything more then a Janitor, or work some other minimum wage job. It absolutely crushed me. I asked him about the possibility of me going to the Military, College, or any other institute that could further me as a individual, and his response was, with my Disability I was not going to make it in those fields. I thought maybe it was just this one particular Counselor. So, I saw multiple Counselors after that, and they basically told me the same thing.
So, here I am 15 years later, struggling, unemployed, and barely making ends meat. I wish I could’ve done things differently in my life, but I have learned that sometimes we can’t help the cards we’re dealt, but all we can really do is deal with them the best way we know how. I refuse to believe that my dreams are dead, because as long as there is breath in my body there is always hope, and I will continue to fight until the bitter end. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but I will continue to fight this battle, and prove that I can be something more, because I refuse to be crushed under the weight of my Disability.