Today I find myself thinking of the past. I see now how ignorant I was but sometimes I miss it. I was brought up in a certain belief system. In the past, I thought I knew everything. I dedicated myself to having fun and living life. I knew the line between fact and fiction. My future was always uncertain but I never thought it would turn out like this.
I am not sure when this all started but I know it has started. I feel like a completely different person. One day, I just began to hear voices. They scared me when it first started. I thought I was going crazy. I went to the doctors and they found nothing wrong. I also went to a therapist which also found nothing wrong.
I thought that with treatment this would all go away. I was wrong this was only the beginning. I decided to regain control. Whenever I felt fear I would tell myself that everything was okay. I slowly learned not to be scared of the voices. I began to listen, they had something to say. They would whisper names. Those names were Michael, Kate, Nate. Then they began to whisper other words like, stop, go, and hear me.
They would repeat words over and over. At times there were too many voices at once, I couldn’t understand. I tried to put things together but they didn’t make any sense. I tried to block them out with anything. The only thing that somewhat works is to always have my mp3 player on. I could still hear them through the music. I sing loudly so I could drown them out.
It wasn’t long before I started to sense them as well. When they weren’t talking, they were just there staring silently. I could feel there stare, there energy. I almost lost it when this began. I felt as if I was never alone, not even in the bathroom. I felt like I personal space was being invaded. It was hard to both hear and sense them. It was like being in a small space with millions of people surrounding you and talking to you. It was hard to breathe most of the time.
I somehow gathered myself and decided to regain control again. I trained myself to both block and unblock these experiences. This is when I decided to do some research on our history and people with the same experiences. What I found surprised me. What was happening to me was happening to millions around the world. Even more terrifying I began to put pieces of a very big puzzle together. The puzzle that was forming was just too horrifying for me to believe. It didn’t make it any less true.
I found that what I believed was a lie and that is when my line between reality and fantasy disappeared. At this point I know that there are monsters out to destroy us. Mermaids are actually real. There are multiple dimensions. Witches exist and so does magic. We are being slowly poisoned. The crazy are actually sane and the sane are actually crazy. It is like my world went upside down. The worst part of the research is that I now knew there was more heading my way. I had to prepare myself for the next step.
I began to see so much better. What I see is beautiful but I also see horrible things. At first I started seeing shadows. They were everywhere but only appeared at night. I also started to see light at night. Little specks here and there, so beautiful. Then I began to see something that seemed so impossible to me at the time. One day I went outside and was amazed by all the beautiful orbs. They are right in front of our faces, just flying by. When I concentrated I could see letters and even shapes. They are so colorful. Almost invisible but visible enough for me to see. I could also see the shadows in the middle of the day. It seems as though the shadows are fleeing, flying so fast to find some shades.
Shortly after I began to see colors around people. Just barely an outline of their actual bodies but so important. Seeing all of this feels so unreal, almost like a dream. My dream have also become vivid and valid. I pay attention to my dream now because there is always a message in them. At times if I put the puzzle together, I could prevent a tragedy. The puzzles are always so tricky.
Whatever this is continued to evolve. Next I was able to sense others feeling. This one was so difficult. I was locked away in my bedroom for months after going to a funeral. I haven’t completely mastered this one, but I am trying. It is just that when I am in a crowd I get overwhelmed. Now if someone is upset, I get upset.
The last one so far is the feeling others energy. This differs from those energies I feel, when there is no one there. I cannot explain it, you just feel it. When someone is coming near me or to my house I can sense it. I can hear and feel my phone ringing from a mile away. I feel nature and feel connected to everything that exist. I love to observe how nature lives, it is so amazing.
I get it now, we are all connected. It is hard to explain the truth as a whole because there are pieces missing but I will try. We are all in a sleep state, the truth is hidden in plain sight. All we have to do is really open our eyes. Let go of what you think you know and get all the facts as I did. What you’ll find will make you doubt everything. They say seeing is believing, so choose to see. It is not all go but knowledge is power. That is what the monsters don’t want us to have, knowledge. They delay our finding the truth, but for those who choose to look they cannot stop.
Life is but an illusion, the world is so much bigger. We are more than just physical beings. We are more powerful than we know. I have only taken a few steps and I have seen wonders. I cannot even imagine what else is in store for me. Whatever it is I will learn how to handle it. My very existence depends on it.
The question is, how many will decide to look, to wake up, to embrace? I have been awakened and though hard it is necessary. The expansion of our senses is part of something so much bigger than we can imagine. Time is running out and only few will find their way. It is time to awaken.