Angels are amongst us. When you have them… cherish their presence every day.
I am bound and blessed… so many good and truly amazing people stand with me, and even through this experience carrying their own burdens of life. My outer armor of face has been made tough by many circumstance of change. Still I remain at times inwardly sensitive toward mean and condescending words and actions of others, where I stand silent in defense of my own heartache. I must have stepped forward before my ‘God’ in the beginning of my time in the knowing of fear, as I did plead my case for just a little more courage. I knew my own need of an army of Angels by my side at all times… to accompany me in the battle of shadows as I bleed out the will of self-loathing caused by those who would not be of an understanding heart. A merciful and loving ‘God’ did give to me in my plea a multitude of keepers… Angels protecting me from the offenses of this unnatural reality… and staying firm ’til my passing through the intimate veil of death. Unconditional Love and wise words from these my keepers, have set me free and have Loved me for who I am as they only know me. Forever they stand at my sides telling me that I am of worth, and even through my many faults and failings. They remind me of my right to reap happiness… despite all else… for as long as earthly time permits; one challenge, one move, one day at a time in this ‘game’ of survival we all play. True and real Angels with a Love that moves me through an often times petty ugliness relentless in its path to engulf my will. I see life’s conundrum through their eyes and hearts… both simple and profound glimpses of heaven and hell intertwined, where I am stirred in hope and courage… enabling me to penetrate the uncertainty overshadowing my peace of mind and spirit; the things of which are cherished in these moments of days. How so very much do I deeply Love them all with a great appreciation of heart to call them my own. They are with me always … when I am weakened… when I am tired… when I am struggling, giving me cause to take note and to move on continued steadfast on this hardened journey. My greatest desire is for this Love to forever remain about me… to move with me through times eternity: A joyous heaven I hold close to my very being. Tears of a great joy do escape me sometimes… when my memories become too full to hold them.
I know what Love is… because I have Loved deeply.
“Carry on, it is what we do -only we don’t have to do it alone” ~Maya Angelo